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December 13, 2003
The Quandry
Each activity is a choice for me. This semester has been a constant battle between grades, ministry, being faithful with my finances, and being faithful to my relationships, all of them being responsibilities given to me by God.
This next semester the plan is to move some off of the grades and some off of the ministry and give them to finances and hopefully gain back some ground.
So this leads to the guilt part. I feel guilty when I spend money on expendable items because it is money that I don’t have. You guys know how it flows through your fingers.
It is hard for me to pay $4 to eat with my ministry team.
It is hard for me to pay $2 to go into C3. (I also would feel guilty if I don’t pay.)
It is even hard for me to pay $1.75 for a coffee to make the guy that I am sharing my faith with to feel more comfortable.
(BTY: Ryan whom I met on Hunt street and talked to for an hour and a half in Stomping Grounds, I am praying for you, I hope that you start looking for real answers and not just questions.)
The conflict says,
“It’s only a couple bucks, and it’s a good cause. God will bless you because of your sacrifice.”
vs.
“I have no money. NO MONEY AT ALL. Not even $2! I have negative money… and it is getting more negative.”
So help me with the balance here guys. I know that you were where I am. Every single dollar puts me that much farther in the hole.
When does my debt become too much? When does my debt become dishonoring to God? When should I start “eating only rice” to get out of it?
Posted by paul at December 13, 2003 12:17 AM