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May 29, 2006
Home?
The plan was to slip into a back pew right as the service was starting. I wasn't there to be seen. In fact, if I could have chosen been invisible, I probably would have done so. But I was seen as soon as I walked in the door. Perhaps I should timed my entrance a few minutes later. But, as it turned out, there was nothing awkward about being seen.
My return to my old church in Omaha was greeted with hugs and smiles. I should have expected nothing less from the congregation recognized by many for it's welcoming members.
Suddenly, I simply forgot that I hadn't been there in almost two years. Yes, the babies were now toddlers. I wasn't quite sure what the procedure was for communion. There have been a couple of major staff changes. I suppose most of the congregaion didn't even consider the building to be "new" anymore. But I noticed nothing other than the refreshing sensation of being home. Especially when taking the wine and hearing, "Blood of Christ, shed for you, Megan."
As wonderful as this experience was, I still have some nagging concerns about it. Is it okay to find solace in the familiar? Is it good to feel nearer to God in a certain building? Is it right to take comfort in creeds and recited prayers?
The message was on Acts 1 -- the naming Matthias to take Judas's place as the twelfth disciple. The only criteria for this leader was that he knew Jesus (v 21-22). Leaders of a church shouldn't be chosen based on IQ or charisma, but all that matters for leaders and members of a church is faith in Christ. This concept seems so simple, but then I wonder, "does my faith live up?" I'm ashamed at how easily circumstances in life make me question, doubt, or even get angry at God. And then, when I take the wine, all it takes for me to feel close to God again is to hear "Blood of Christ, shed for you, Megan." I'm weak.
This has turned into about twelve different entries combined into one -- probably because I'm hot and tired. (I think I'm going to have to give in and run the AC soon.) Perhaps I'll post something more coherent tomorrow.
Posted by Megan at May 29, 2006 09:41 PM
Comments
Check out 1 Cor 4:10
What are you thinking about when you drink from the cup?
Posted by: Steve O at May 31, 2006 01:12 AM