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April 03, 2005
Whimper
61 degrees and sunny. A breeze that caresses your cheek with the ethereal touch of a feather. The air smells as sweet as cotton candy. It's the kind of weather that causes all bad moods epavorate and puts a smile on the faces of even the least congenial people.
Most football players on this campus own motor scooters. They ride and park them anywhere they please. I refer to them as dork-mobiles.
One guy in my dorm owns what looks to me like a pretty decent motorcycle. It's a Honda -- nothing fancy, but it looks solid. I don't know the guy very well at all. I just know that he's an RA, and I'm fairly certain that he doesn't play football. And he seems nice.
As I was walking to the commons to get lunch, he was starting his bike up. I had a nearly irresistable urge to go jump on the back. Repressing it caused me to whimper aloud. Fortunately, there was no one within earshot.
We read an essay in my non-fiction class about a woman who rides motorcycles. Only she doesn't just ride on the back. She drives.
Most of the essay was about the sense of control this gives her. The essay was beautifully written, but I couldn't relate. I have no desire to handle one myself.
It's odd. I like control -- a little too much sometimes. Yet I would much prefer to sit on the back of a bike. I'm constantly controlling every aspect of life -- I study hard to get good grades, I try to be the best leader possible to make our College Republicans chapter thrive.
When I get on a motorcycle, I want to forget about all of that. I want to leave the rest of my life behind for just a few moments. I want to be carefree.
It seems like there's a lesson about surrender somewhere in all of this. I'll let you know when I figure out what it is.
Posted by Megan at April 3, 2005 02:44 PM
Comments
Nicely written!
Posted by: Tony at April 4, 2005 01:01 PM
I whimpered outloud reading about the motercycle... and I'm in a computer lab with one other person
Posted by: alisa at April 4, 2005 05:43 PM