October 04, 2004
Flat on My Face
I decided to go on my own little retreat with God this weekend. Except I didn't really go anywhere. Anyway...
I read Ephesians and Philippians, and came to the conclusion that all that should matter to me is forwarding God's kingdom, not all this other junk that I concern myself with.
Then the weekend ended, and everything picked back up, and before I new it, I was wrapped up in all this other junk again. And I watched myself fall. And there was nothing I could do about it. And I was, and still am, frustrated and angry with myself.
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. -Romans 7:15
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Quote of the day (actually from a couple of days ago):
quiglers83: why didn't you food with us tonight?
olemegan: fasting
quiglers83: um
quiglers83: why?
olemegan: just felt like i should kinda seek God out this weekend
olemegan: we still targeting?
quiglers83: I kinda doubt you'll find God at Target
olemegan: LOL
quiglers83: I mean they have a lot of stuff, but...
Posted by Megan at October 4, 2004 09:13 PM
Comments
Life happens. I'm pretty sure God understands that you're doing your best. He doesn't expect us to be perfect. Hang in there.
Posted by: Kristin at October 4, 2004 10:47 PM
you know what? It'll be okay. The junk is hard to get away from sometimes, and the point is that you did and you escaped with God. Yeah, you're back to the world you live it, but that doesn't mean you can't change it. And, remember God knows.
Posted by: Angie at October 4, 2004 11:04 PM
"came to the conclusion that all that should matter to me is forwarding God's kingdom"
Not so, I would venture to suggest. That's a recipe for burnout.
All that should matter to you is getting closer to God, getting to know him better, and discovering the you He created you to be. After all, isn't that why he died for you, for relationship?
The other stuff flows from the health and beauty of that relationship.
Matthew 11
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Posted by: Different Dan at October 5, 2004 04:14 PM
Ouu, good point dan. I want to disagree with your statement at face value, but you are correct I think. All that should matter to you is Christ (not ministry, or anything you DO). The rest flows from that.
Good stuff.
Posted by: Matt Heerema at October 6, 2004 08:49 AM
Yes Matt. It's hard to accept at face value, I agree. But if you think about it. It's true. After all, weren't the Pharisees the classic "doers?" What they forgot was that relationship with God, and through him with others, was the ultimate goal.
Our human nature wants to do stuff. Yet "the sacrifices of God are a broken heart." God wants us, not what we can do for him.
What are the two great commandments? Love God, love people. "On these two commands hang the entire LAW (the "to do" stuff) and the prophets.
Posted by: Different Dan at October 6, 2004 10:58 AM