September 18, 2007
cold
sirens. i never heard so many sirens as i hear here in chicago. i have started to not even notice them. when i do, i wonder where are they going? what has happened? but often i dont even notice.
my coworker and i got into a crazy discussion about the inequalities in the public school system the other day. i told her to read savage inequalities, but then took it back telling her she is already aware enough. it breaks my heart really. no support, no resources. what are they supposed to do to help those kids? how do you make a difference? we talked about race and poverty. taxes and glass ceilings. social justice and the courts. neighborhoods and property values. and money and power and politics. it wore us both out, we both lost sleep that night. the girls in the next office thought there were kids screaming. it was just us, friends. i was so honored to be so open and vulnerable with her. and see her heart about these tough issues. i was glad she trusts me and that our relationship is strong enought to handle the "race card" getting tossed out there. its crazy that even in this day and age, even in our field and our agency, our color can divide us. not today. a victory.
yesterday i watched two children get removed from their home. it was a tough day in court. a woman told me sometimes the right decision doesnt always feel good. im learning that lesson
i have been really blessed by three people God has placed in my life. i am not going to name them, but they too have all lost parents. one of them is a woman in my field who i admire greatly and wasnt even sure she knew i existed. she looked at me yesterday (while we were at court with the above mentioned family) and empathized with me. we talked about loss and she offered dear advise and a smile that warmed my soul. "goodness". i had sort of lost track of that.
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