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April 19, 2006
I'm getting married!
Posted by Emily at 07:06 PM | Comments (15)
April 07, 2006
whimp
all in all this story, though it may be hard to follow my reasoning, has been encouraging to me. again and again i am reminded and shown even more that i am weak. so i started this new business, selling pampered chef in my spare time. and lets face it, im not great at it. it involves me being upfront, forward, and even aggressive at times. i have to sell stuff. suck! none of those things am i naturally. in fact, this whole ordeal has reminded me how timid i really am. i have a hard time even getting a catalog out to ask if people want to order stuff (even when i desperately need them to or ask them if they want to have a party cause i need to come up with two more this month) and while i am wallowing in all this. i laugh realizing i am such a moron. i let satan tear me to shreds convincing me that somehow my faith must not be real since im not more bold for God. ha. how this all came round to make me actually excited, im not sure, but anyway it was honestly reassuring that it isn't that i haven't experienced God's grace or dont trust him, its that im a sissy la la! i just dont have much confidence in general. so pooh on you satan
so i am forced to depend on God for my confidence and to top it off, in my weakness, God insists that i trust Him to come through for me. cause guess what, im in a spot where im screwed otherwise.
Posted by Emily at 06:15 PM | Comments (3)