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November 17, 2004
Proverbs 16:33
we may throw the dice, but the Lord determines how they fall
Posted by Emily at 03:00 PM | Comments (3)
November 16, 2004
crank spreads
so i was pretty humbled last night at work as i took a second to breath and think in the midst of things (which doesn't always happen) it started cause i was trying to deal with a situation between a couple boys as we were walking up to dinner. they were fighting about something incredibly stupid and handling the matter in an immature and completely not appropriate way. which we will note: should have been a prime teaching moment for me to grab, but i couldn't. i had to take a deep breath and admit the fact that i was actually irritated. i could feel myself getting frustrated and loosing patience. my own personal attitude was getting in the way. granted i had put up with more than my fair share of crap that night and been putting out fires all along which had worn my patience thin, but unfortunately for me that doesnt get to matter. now is all that matters. i was embarrassed as i snapped at them and said something to the effect of "oh shut up, why are we arguing about something so pointless?" (gross i know, i am being honest about myself here, i cant even pretend i taught anything) and one of my boys looked at me and said, "because to us it isnt pointless emily, you gotta understand" and yup then i felt like crap. later i was trying to get paper work done and a kid kept causing trouble and i just kept on him, kept correcting behavior and redirecting ineffective communication, which would quickly get on anyone's nerves and he was no exception. as his anger at me increased, i had to note that i wasnt being my normal self. i was letting my impatience come out again and riding him about things i might have otherwise overlooked. and that is when i started thinking about it. i was amazed at how much my poor attitude affects my night at work and how smoothly it will or will not run. it directly affects my boys' attitudes. lou and i were just joking the other night about how emtionless you have to be at times at our job, but it is true. if you start letting stuff get to you, your night is done. all hell breaks loose
Posted by Emily at 12:58 PM | Comments (1)
November 15, 2004
been a while
so here are highlights and thoughts:
got my shox finally and jumped up and down today in excitement to show Jenetta who is so proud
decided that if i got a dollar for every time a kid called me a name at work, i bet it would be equal to working overtime
saw a shooting star on the way home, that was wonderful
love my roomates so much
Posted by Emily at 11:53 PM | Comments (1)
November 05, 2004
so today as i was driving, it occurred to me that God delights in blessing me. and He does just because. simple? yes, but true. sometimes i must admit i fall victim to the thought pattern that God blesses us when we please Him. so today i was blessed and did i do anything great? thats a big fat no. He did it just because . so good to remember it isnt about me.
Posted by Emily at 11:35 PM | Comments (1)