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July 18, 2005
knocked down
al la humbled.
so heres my story. im not sure i have ever been so struck by the urgency of obedience. it all began well friday morning i suppose, when i broke. i brought my discouragement and feelings of uselessness to God's feet and had it out with him. like my pal angie i can tend to get a little fleshy when im frustrated, but its okay God knows me and He can take it. so i screamed and begged "why the he** did you bring me here to chicago? i mean seriously God, what are you going to do with my life?" in anguish over being completely confident i was in His will to come, and desiring to see big things happen, i admitted my disappointment. well, God meet me there with peace and on to the day i went.
arriving at work, i was filled with peace, but lets be honest, i had no faith for anything. "just another craptastic day i guess" i thought to myself. i was encouraged about plans to hang out over the weekend with my coworker, but after weeks of loosing the spiritual start to our friendship, i resolved to accept that we wouldn't get back there. went in, thinking "i'll just love her God, if thats all that you have fpr us."
well one convo about soy and protein later, i had shared my testimony with her and verbally walked through the gospel and even had another coworker join us! flat on my butt, i went on break and called christie crying, couldn't believe it. God used me and was so in control. i was astonished and humbled knowing i had done absolutely nothing. couldn't take credit for one ounce of it, except for once in my life i yielded to the spirit's leading. ok ok maybe i've done it more than once, but lets face it- in general i suck.
so the humbling continues. today i get to work to find that both of these coworkers quit! yes thats right folks. gone, not working with me ever again! on my butt again, thinking "wow i really could have missed it, by one day of being fearful and not opening my mouth, i could have missed it" talk about soverignty in God's timing. He knows oh so much more than i. there is an urgency in obedience.
good news is this woman already emailed me and she only quit this morning! please be praying for us. i am so in awe and longing to know my crazy God even more.
Posted by Emily at July 18, 2005 10:16 PM
Comments
Wow, Em...that is really cool and encouraging...we appreciate you sharing!
Posted by: Matt and Nancy at July 18, 2005 11:42 PM
Wow indeed! Thank you for encouraging me today!
Posted by: Dana Marie at July 19, 2005 02:07 PM