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July 10, 2006
laughing hysterically...
well, for those of you who don't know, that i haven't been able to get ahold of, or who are out of town, here's the official word...
...jensen and i are engaged.
now, i know i haven't blogged in the longest, so i feel that i need to back up a bit before sharing the obligatory proposal details.
this relationship has been a crazy ride. out of the blue. out of the box. just the way God likes it i think. God has done crazy things and bore much fruit. spiritual fruit. relational fruit. character fruit.
has it been fun? yes.
has it been hard? definitely.
have i been stretched? oh yeah.
have i been humbled? undeniably.
have i been blessed? without a doubt.
you may or may have not known that jensen and i had been fasting from one another for the last month. in a very God-ordained conversation, not intended (on my part) to be about our relationship at all, a pastor's wife asked me to consider praying about how God might use the time if jensen and i gave our relationship time back to God.
insert hysterical crying.
but after much prayer, reading, crying, and repeating this cycle, we decided we had nothing to lose by fasting and everything to gain.
confidence in our willingness to suffer for the other.
growth in our individual character.
confidence in God's leading in the relationship.
growth in our relationships within the body.
confidence that our relationships with God were of top priority.
and the list goes on...
but nevertheless, with great relief, God allowed the fast to come to an end after a LONG month.
this past WEEK had been great. at the end of the fast, i was starting to feel like a kid anticipating Christmas. i had claimed John 15:2 for the fast, knowing that God wanted to bear fruit, and i was just eager to know what that fruit was and how it was going to play out in our lives.
haha, keep in mind, that when i say great, i don't mean it's been easy in all aspects. i'm not sure what jensen or i would do with ourselves if everything was going smooth and easy. i'm convinced with both have strong spiritual calves from all the uphill climbing we've done in life :)
anyway, so back to the proposal...
he decides we're going to go out to eat in des moines yesterday. i really didn't think too much of it because we hadn't had a date time since we'd been off the fast. we decided to go to a mexican restaurant because i HEART mexican food.
everything's going pretty good, i'm nice and oblivious, and then BOOM! as soon as i slide into the booth at the restaurant, i get this "ahhh! what if he asks me?" keep in mind, i had NO reason to suspect this, it wasn't a crazy nice restaurant, it was a sunday afternoon, etc.
so i start making random STUPID small talk (this only going to be amusing if you know jensen and i's continuous awkward interactions, haha, but read on...).
"wow, these chips are big."
"hey, what should we get to drink?"
[staring wide eyed into the aisle] "WHEN is that waitress coming back?"
so, i'm sure the poor kid was freaking out because he knows me well enough to know i was certainly freaking out about something. but anyhoo (oh, and it's important to note that jensen is VERY sincere, but not smooth or charming...which i love), jensen starts to launch into a perfectly wonderful, proposal speech, meanwhile i'm trying to stare at the menu (no joke).
he finally gets me to look at him. asks me a few questions and says, "can i ask you one last question?" sure. "will you be my wife?" POW! ring box on the table. AHHHH!
insert hysterical laughter.
no, of course i wouldn't be the typical girl and start crying. i start laughing hysterically. until he asks, "well?"
"yes!" insert more hysterical laughing.
and that's pretty much how the rest of the day went. i'd call someone. they'd scream. i'd start laughing.
so, yeah, at least you can be pretty guaranteed you'll get some comic relief at our wedding. no exact date picked yet. but we're shooting for may.
if you see jensen, be sure to congratulate him. and tell him laughing is perfectly normal :)
boy, he picked a crazy girl...
Posted by Autumn at July 10, 2006 09:02 AM