August 19, 2007
The root of awkwardness
This is a moderately profound thought not entirely my own, (well, maybe not even my own at all) but I somehow feel the need to let it breath a little......
A friend and I were recently talking about a specific problem she is having. Not even thinking, I was like, oh, you should talk to so and so because so and so knows what to do. Which elicited a very tense response... that would be so awkward, though. What? Where's the awkwardness? And, it comes down to this.... after two years of being in a church with someone and being in their same circle of existence, they had never been introduced.
My gut reaction was to think that was completely ridiculous! Until, I started to think of all the people that I've never been introduced to and feel completely awkward talking to even though I'd like to very much. AND, what's more is that there are people whom I've never been introduced but have for one reason or another interacted with consistently and like very much, yet I still cannot do the unthinkable of pursuing them relationally outside of the context of that interaction.
The answer seems so simple, but the solution appears to be painfully awkward. How does one bring about an end to this painfully awkward paradigm? I I mean, if it's too awkward to do anything about now, what will it be like in, say ten years? I mean, really? It'll suck. Yet, I can only aspire to vow to put an end to such awkwardness in my life.... I'm sure tomorrow I'll have forgotten all such passion and relegate myself yet again to the normalcy of the shade of the awkward tree in my life.
Posted by Angelina at 01:27 AM | Comments (4)