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August 17, 2006
The Down Low
So, it is true that the post amazing summer blues have hit me hard. I am glad to be home and back in Ames, but it continues to be a massive adjustment for me. Sometimes I walk around not knowing what I am doing. I miss the simplicity of my life this summer. Now I am aurrounded by people and relationships back in my large circle of life here, and I find myself not knowing exactly what to do at any given time. I often only see people at meetings 'cause I don't know who to call or what to do.
The wedding last week was a healthy diversion for me. But, it only seemed to prolong the inevitable. I worked hard and keep myself from thinking too much about what awaited me back in Ames again. I still ddn't talk to anyone over the weekend. I think I get so overwhelmed in large groups of people lately that i just shut down.
This week I find myself confronted with some major decisions about what my life and my ministry will look like this year. I feel like I'm tossed upon the waves of my emotions, and have been trying so desperately to slow down and hear from God. Tonight I think that I did for once hear from God since I've been back. It was at our All Leders' Kickoff Meeting. It was kind of cool. I guess I'll see what comes of that.
The meeting tonight was great, though. I feel like we as a 'church' are in a really good, humble, desperate place. God can meet us here, and I felt like He did at our prayer meeting. I feel bad for those who missed it. It was a great time of prayer. It made me miss this summer, but it was exhilirating to feel a glimpse of what I haven't felt for a week and a half now.
Posted by Angelina at August 17, 2006 12:55 AM
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Hey Angie,
I miss you already. I hate the fact that you are more than 3 blocks away again, when I just got you back within arm's reach for the first time since spring. I am in this desperate place where I just want to be held by Jesus and want to recieve His grace so badly. I want my life in that place where it's easy to live for Him, where He's got full control. I want to feel that freedom. All I can do is cry and want to read the word. I have been looking for the daily reading suggestions we'd used last year. I can't find them. What website can I visit? I miss you, and I'll be praying for you and the place the recent transition has put you in. I love you Angie.
Alli
Posted by: AP at August 28, 2006 09:35 PM