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May 30, 2006
3 Questions...
The past few days I've been doing a lot of feeling sorry for myself and attempting to respond to life out of my own flesh and my own designs on what it will take to make me happy. Sometime Sunday I started to break and realized how utterly ridiculous I was being. That's when I took to listening to some teachings as opposed to wasting time on the internet or walking to Blockbuster.
I just finished listening to a Mary Knox teaching about life lessons. About halfway through she talks about having spiritual gifts and being who you are, faning to flame the gifts God has given you, etc. She then brought up Elderidge's "Waking the Dead," talking about how to ask yourself the heart questions.... and the go something like this:
Who am I?
What is my name?
What do I love?
It's so crazy for me sometimes... I just forget. I forget who I am and get lost in other people, and in other people's expectations of me. It makes living a life of the heart an amazingly difficult thing for me. But, there is shear joy in my heart when I am reminded of these questions...
I am a daughter of the King, yet I am His bride, His love. All the simplicity of being a child, dearly loved and protected; while at the same time a friend and a love, ready to co-labor
with Christ in this eternal battle. It's amazing....
Posted by Angelina at May 30, 2006 11:06 PM
Comments
Ang~
Amen! I totally relate. Sometimes life distracts me and dilutes me into questioning who I really am. It is refreshing to know that one of my sisters coninually overcomes this same problem! Rock on!
~Holly
Posted by: Holly at May 31, 2006 08:55 AM
Angie,
Its a pretty unsettling, yet comforting thought that we always have a choice set before us. I like the idea of taking over your own person and battling the earthly desires so that you can attain undividedness and may always present all that you are before the Lord.
~Steve
Posted by: Steve O at May 31, 2006 11:30 AM