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July 25, 2004

Moving!

I just got back from Chicago, and had a great weekend! It was well worth it to see my friends now instead of waiting the week or two 'til they show back up in town. I had some great conversations, spent an amazing amount of time with Alisa, and am tried (though quite refreshed).

Tonight is the last night for me in the Hunt St. House. It's sad, I know. I was hoping not to move again. But, tomorrow (Monday) night I'm moving over to Borseths', and I am excited about that! And, if you're free, you're welcome to help...hopefully we'll be hauling out boxes and furniture at 6:30, the more the merrier!

Until I get all settled in... I'll be in cyber transfer, though thankfully there will not be the painful wait some will experience. It'll just be a bit before I will probably set up the computer. So, I'll see you 'round...

Posted by Angelina at 07:48 PM | Comments (2)

July 20, 2004

Love

Today I got into an interesting conversation with one of the girls I work with, whom I shall refer to as Cordelia (though her name is actually not Cordelia). Cordelia comes up to me, ready to rant about the latest drama in her relationship with her boyfriend Mark (whose name is also not Mark).

Now Cordelia has been upset recently because Mark has been calling her Mindy, the actual name of his ex-girlfriend. I was expecting a rant along this line, preparing for whatever. Then, she tells me:

"Yeah, last night I came back to work to get something I had left and was talking to Mark, then as I was leaving he casually says, '....I'll see you later, love ya.'
I was in such shock, I asked him, 'What?'
But then he just said, 'Uh, I'll call you later.'"

Now, I must say that I was a bit perplexed. She has been dating this guy for a month and a half now, in which they spend almost every waking minute together. And, she was freaking out because of this small, casual way of expressing a feeling. Wouldn't it be normal to have some degree of affection towards her? I mean, wouldn't one's feelings be at least somewhat stirred in six weeks of constant togetherness? I mean, honestly... it's not like he declared his undying love and proposed or anything!

I guess it was hard for me to stomach... I grew up in a family that said, "I love you," all the time. And even now, I'm not afraid to tell the people in my life that I love them. And, it's just hard to imagine... 'cause there are so many different kinds of love, and we should so easily be able to give and receive love. It's hard to imagine a life where there was only one kind of love between a man and a woman... I guess it's just not the case for me. I love my brothers and my friends, and expect to love the man I may marry some day long before I am 'in love' with him.

Anywho, long story... little point. I felt bad though for Cordelia 'cause I just sort of responded to her like it was no big deal. "Eh, your boyfriend said love ya, that's a GOOD sign isn't it?"

Posted by Angelina at 04:20 PM | Comments (4)

July 19, 2004

Ashamed?

Okay, so work has been a tough one as of late, and I'm not really sure why I let it bother me so much. I work with about four girls consistently whom I have been getting to know all summer. Occasionally, I will go out for a couple drinks and to play pool & watch 'South Park" on Wednesday nights. All has been fine all summer. They know that I don't allow myself to get drunk, and they think that it's weird. But, I can handle that I guess.

But, this past week has been rough as we are all getting to know one another more, and they are diving deeper into their worldly girl lives. They have come to realize that I get easily embarassed and that I don't talk about boyfriends or a sex life. Hmmm.... So, they started to ask questions quickly. Now, they are amazed at the life of purity or prudeishness that I live. So much so that it's become the talk of work. Yikes.

I find myself at a loss of how to explain my views on all of this... knowing that they are anti-Christian. I have mostly just let it bother me that my work friends now think of me as a bit of a joke. And, today, I was reading the Word over my break and one of the girls realized that I was reading my Bible. She kind of poked fun, and asked me why I would read the Bible. I simply said that it's an important part of my faith, and that it's what I do to purse my relationship with God.

But for some reason... I backed away from it. I was hesitant to really be bold and proclaim my faith. I don't want to be ashamed of my life, and mostly I am not. I am lucky to be in the place that I am, with the convictions that have prevented me from being wounded to a greater degree by this world. But, I find for the first time in quite a few years it is really hard for me to be bold about who I am and why I live my life the way that I do.

I guess I'm just a bit introspective today... we just talked about the example of the apostle Paul's life in life group last night. I want so badly to be single-minded and focused on the Gospel, but find the line of being all things to all people a tough one for me to figure out. I can walk on either side of it, but have a hard time in being bold about the Gospel as I am trying to be like those I am around.

Just questions today, not sure the answers. I guess I just wanted to write about the thoughts in my head...

Posted by Angelina at 02:38 PM | Comments (3)

July 12, 2004

sleep, selects, stupidity

Today has been a great day... it got off to a bad start when I accidentally made Em late for work 'cause I woke up late, but I have to say it's most enjoyable when she drops me off at work on her way, well out of her way, but you know. It can be depressing knowing the other person gets to go back to bed... especially when you only got a couple hours sleep the night before. (see last night)

I had to go back to work this afternoon for a meeting... but it was good. We basically got to sit around and talk for awhile when we were supposed to watch these stupid training videos, then we got to make our super-new, super-secret chicken product. Well... they're not really secret. We're getting chicken selects, which are basically really good chicken strips. (you know, like the ones at Arby's... not that I eat anywhere but McDonald's)

However, I must rant about one thing: training videos. They expected us to watch a ten minute video demonstrating how we are supposed to package low-carb sandwiches! What's so complicated??? You put it in a box instead of on a bun! And, gross... who wants to eat their Egg McMuffin with no muffin? Are you just supposed to order an Egg Mc? I can't handle this.. not one bit. We're not even going to mention that people who need to be on a diet do not need to be eating at McDonald's. I bet if they took out fast food from their diet instead of carbs they would lose a lot of weight too!

Posted by Angelina at 04:42 PM | Comments (4)

July 08, 2004

The Subject of the Day

We were discussing something at church the other night...and it too has to do with the subject of the day: cyring.

Now, sometimes in life there is just a lot going on...work, school, relationships, etc....and you don't really think things are getting to you, you just keep going. Until, the fateful moment when something BIG happens...that unexpected thing, the e-mail from a freind, an argument with someone you love, a moment of teasing gone bad...and you start crying.

I'm not talking about normal crying here...I'm talking about the big CRY. The loud, snotty, sobbing cry...the one that people would be scared to see. And you think...the world is over, I might as well crawl into a hole and die, because I can't take anymore of this...I can't do anything about it.

Somewhere along the way, logic creeps in and you realize that you are bone-tired and weary, that your emotions are irrational and out of control and you need one thing: sleep. But then, it gets worse, and worse, until somehow you fall asleep only to wake up in the morning and think, "Huh, I'm not sure what THAT was all about.".

Now, I'm not saying the cry is all over nothing. I am saying that the reaction spins way out of control, and it's a scary place to be, one where no one understands you and you barely understand yourself. And there is nothing that you can seemingly do to regain control of it all. But, in the morning whatever it was that started it all is still there, and it's more managable.

Sometimes I think crying is the insane sort of release that gets rid of all the junk that's been going on inside and frees you up to confronting the situation at hand. Some of that emotion just has to go away, so you work it to death... and I'm not sure that it doesn't just come out with all the snot and tears... and then you are free to move on.

I'm not saying this makes sense... 'cause I don't even understand it. But, I do no one thing: even though it sucks, somehow it all seems to get better after the cry is done and over with, and the problem can then be tackled... or amends made.

Posted by Angelina at 07:45 PM | Comments (6)

July 05, 2004

Movies

So, it's no secret that I like movies...in fact I'm kind of surprised that I haven't really blogged much about them. But, I have been hooked on them for a long time! I am not sure what it is...maybe it's the fact that the screen is so big that I don't miss the details...maybe it's that going to a movie forces you into the experience of it all...I don't know.

Back home we call "going to a movie," "going to a show." The first time I can remember going to the show was when I got to go to "Vice Versa" with my dad. I remember seeing the comericals for it on t.v., and wanting to go so badly, then going to a matinee with my dad. I can't remember how old I was, or how it came to be that it was just me and dad...but it was wonderful! I loved the feeling of it...even of being blinded by the sun as we left.

Even now, going to a movie might be my favorite form of entertainment. And, if I have to watch it at home...I guess that's okay too. I don't do scary movies 'cause I can't handle it (I mean, I had nightmares after "The Wizard of Oz"...she was one scary witch!) And, I don't like my generations stupid comedy films (read: American anything, and sex-based humor). But, I'm pretty much up for most movies. Granted, I check www.screenit.com, and if it passes my personal standards, I'll go.

Last night, my dad and I went to the show on a bit of a whim...and it brought back memories of my first real movie, and it was a lot of fun! We saw Tom Hanks' new movie: "The Terminal." It was good. Probably the best performance out of Hanks since "Forrest Gump," and quite possibly an Oscar contender (if my vote counts).

Random Angie Movie Facts....

FAVORITES:
Classic movie: Tammy & the Bachelor with Debbie Reynolds and Leslie Nielson.
80s movie: Can't Buy Me Love with Patrick Dempsey OR Top Gun
Artsy movie: The Talented Mr. Ripley
Comedy: Cheaper By the Dozen
Chick Flick: You've Got Mail OR Never Been Kissed
Epic: Braveheart...though I've only seen it once
Animated: Monsters, Inc....you can't beat the ending, I might have cried.
Feel Good: Radio OR The Other Sister

First movie seen in a theatre: Vice Versa (duh, you probably just read that)
Last movie seen in a theatre: The Terminal (yeah, that too)
Only movie walked out on: Moulin Rouge
Only time truly offended at a movie: The end of "Josie & the Pussycats"
Movie I wish I would have seen in a theatre: Braveheart
Movie I wish I would not have seen: Event Horizon (see paragraph 3)
Movie in my VCR right now: You've Got Mail
Movie in my DVD player right now: Bend It Like Beckham
Movie I could probably quote by heart: Hope Floats
Movie I am ashamed to own: Titanic, which btw, I purchased on midnight the night it came out at Wal-Mart 'cause I had nothing better to do.
Movie I wish I owned: Too many to list here

Posted by Angelina at 10:25 PM | Comments (8)