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April 20, 2004
One Year...
In January, I decided...well, God put it on my heart...to give a year of my life solely to pursusing a deeper, more intimate relationship with Him. (This meaning that if anyone were to pursue me right now, I would have to say no, that this year of my life is devoted to Christ.)
So, it's been four and a half months, and it has been crazy! I don't think that I have ever in my life struggled so badly with wanting to be married, but I keep on. I have been trying to take all of my thoughts, and all of my daydreams and ask God to teach me more about himself through them. I even went away last weekend, at my wit's end, wanting nothing more than to love God and to be loved by God. It has been rewarding beyond belief! There is so much about my relationship with God that I feel is this secret thing right now...that no one would understand. It's so private, so intimate that I love it!
Chaos is all around me, but it seems to be okay, like I know it's all going to work out 'cause God is in it with me. What a feeling. Now, truth be told I"m human, and that's not how I feel ALL the time, but it's how I feel today and a lot of the yesterdays lately.
Posted by Angelina at April 20, 2004 06:46 PM
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Me too, Ange. We need to hang out this summer.
Posted by: heather at April 20, 2004 10:27 PM
Duh.
Posted by: Angie at April 20, 2004 11:53 PM
Best. Comment. Evar.
Posted by: Pat at April 21, 2004 04:27 PM